Assistance to ruin my life?

issue CB : Help on the ruins of my life In 19 (men), i diagnosed with Asperger’s, I’m not the leave & # XE9; in homes, the computer in my life, I feel a mixture of anger, fear, shame and humiliation. I feel like the lowest common denominator, while in high school I was bullied (verbally, psychologically), I introduced and even in high school, but in the end I just broke down and now I’m just in my own little bubble (home) I do not live there I’m afraid to leave home to meet his former peers (IM surrounded by them), they have power and # xfc; mich.Meine on future yet worse now, I feel that the size of my youth since I was a child I was always a loner, the computer is my only friend, I know its sad I f & # xfc; cave in me like wasting my life and there is nothing I can do, physically I look in my mid 20s (due to excess use of computers & # XE9; dental at the end # N & Xe4;. NIGHTS and that the loss of will power down my eyes, my face is to lose muscle tone , its depressing, I do not smoke, drink alcohol or drugs, even accidentally, but more than 10 years was sad ive.Sein outside, to see others develop the movement and its Leben.Es is like to be kept under pressure in a late (5 years), I horrible f & # XFC; hlen.Meine communication / social skills are weak, I can not even go to town and visit to feel good, I feel like a boy & # XE7; it, emotionally, socially, I’m really, this street; ckw