Please help, my life is in turmoil?

question : please help, my life is in turmoil In 19 (men), I have Asperger’s, I ‘m almost never leave the house, the computer in my life, I feel a mixture of anger, fear, shame and humiliation. I feel like the lowest common denominator, while in high school I was bullied (verbally, psychologically), I introduced and even in high school, but in the end I just broke down and now I’m just in my own little bubble (home) I do not live there I’m afraid to leave home to meet his former peers (IM surrounded by them), they have power and # xfc; mich.Seit of my childhood, I always been a loner, the computer is my only friend, I know its sad, I feel that my life in size and there is nothing I can do physically I look in my mid 20s (due to the use of surplus computers late at night and reduced power loss ofwill. my eyelids, my face lose their muscle tone, its depressing, I do not smoke, drink alcohol or drugs, but by mistake, even at the age of IVE was more than 10 Jahren.Sein sad seen outside, others see the move to develop and Leben.F