question of Galilee Jones : Am I Bipolar … or just paranoid … or just 19 … or just an alcoholic … or simply fighting an addiction to pot? Help?
Thus, since the fifth class I have depression, and usually I think of something that is irrational or me, focusing on the situation worse (it varies from totally irrational things that are semi-rational concern but at a higher level as I should). I have many common depressive symptoms of the person bipolar, but I am a 19 year old male with a family that share all the problems of fear of, what I see, but I do not know if, as I do about it to suffer. I’m not suicidal at all but in spite of depression because I’m afraid of dying. Causes of death seems to my new anxiety / depression, obsession to be (at least this is true). I also developed a manic episode, but only one. It took about a month. I felt good, I could not sleep, I do not need to eat, I did not care what others thought of me, my mind raced, I was optimistic, I wrote and made the best songs I’ve ever had in my life, I began to believe in God and Catholicism again (it was quite a change from my “nihilism” worldview-ish) and I was extremely emotional, often too fast to start a fight, but for a faster Ya kiss on the system) I felt completely free of my depression I rode past anxiety. I loved every second. But remember, this episode of mania began in spring break, I went to my favorite position with my best friends in the world every day and drank much less twice (he was a bender, I am aware that I h am an alcoholic and it works in my family). They also note that I smoked pot almost every day until spring break for about eight months, but I’m not on this trip smoke, never drank much. If you wonder why I smoke a lot, because I medicate for irritable bowel syndrome (IBS time was certainly the hardest moment of my life, but only recently went / managed has completely Haleluja! But is another story). After a month or two, the mania is over, my religious convictions to change agnostics ** side note: someone just curious to follow the Big Bang and God? I had all this before, so it does not surprise me to read, but I do not think they would reject God and the masses, I thought it would be more open ** but anyway, the habit of being arrested, but my pot habbit continues and every time I drink, I fail (which is nothing new for me and just once or twice a week since high school). I quit smoking pot recently, because it is too expensive to keep a habbit and because I thought it was just to my depression. I thought my obsession was to me normally and weeds were prevented me from my normal, but after much research, I discovered that I bipolar or not, the episode was, after spring break certainly the habit of some sort and my current state more depressed than a healthy mind should be happy, although I keep a good sense of humor. I also have symptoms of schizophrenia, but I’m just like “blah blah blah … … .. bipolar schizophrenia are just words people in a system that is made to describe people like me, just because we are not “normal person”, each to pretend in this system, we will appoint our world. ” So I should get help for bipolar disorder when I know that every doctor would like me to sign for medication, because I fit the general profile and more money in your pocket? (Also, I do not trust the drug could treat depression) or am I just another hormone, the emotional teenager / y, paranoia leads me to conclusions about my mental health to jump? Or is it just the lives of those suffering from alcoholism, high bottom, etc? (Although I do not drink every day when I drink I fall, and is alchoholism, I saw many other alcoholics at work) and I feel the mood swings and Depression now because I’m trying to quit smoking weed I? (No matter what anyone tells you, weed is very addictive, or atleast it was me, I’m fiending for them, but do not let me smoke and its hard) Or am I a “storm perfect “experienced under conditions that are talking all my life negatively? Or should I just write a novel called “eye-catcher rye n II” and in the air a little more of my questions that I could’nt possibly one on this issue? … haha … but have a more serious note, my life is a roller coaster and I apologize for writing a lot and I wish I could explain it in fewer words, and if anyone read this far let me know what I have to do. All suggestions are welcome and are greatly appreciated. Thank you again Best answer:
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